hi there - I do get the intrusive thoughts without the rituals. I do have to have things tidy and lined up properly but I dont do this obsessively and I dont do this to make me feel better about the thoughts. Everyone is different. I have had the sexuality thought, that was the first thought when it happened to me. I was convinced I had turned 'gay' but I knew I wasnt and never would be. It really scared me and I couldnt sleep, eat or go to work. It then turned into violent thoughts to loved ones. I feared I would harm children also which I knew would never happen but I still thought it and it made me feel sick and scared again. These thoughts are now right at the back of my mind and dont occur with such fear anymore but then a new thought will pop into my head. Are you taking meds or have you spoken to your doctor as I would strongly recommend that. I kept it hidden for 4 years and am taking meds now which help a lot.

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