I feel for you because I've read your threads and I know the difficulty you've had with your partner. But self-awareness isn't the halfway hash mark. It's not even a hash tag.

It's a glance, and most of the time it just makes understanding what is being done easier. It can be used to great affect. Sympathy is easy, empathy is far more difficult. But we're not cookie-cuts...everyone is different, true. I for one, aspire to fill the awkward placement of my emotions somewhere out of the sphere most others have. But if I don't, I don't. I can only then aspire to hurt fewer people with my random boredom.

I hurt too. But mine can't be calculated by 'them', because even as I can't totally empathize with 'them'...they truly have no clue of me. Only another NP can do that. And I expect just a nod of understanding, no sympathy, nor empathy from them.

But, you see....for me, that's enough.