Mickey
I can understand your pain & hope you're being gentle w/ yourself today. It's not an easy thing to work thru!
I was sexually abused in HS & I'm working thru it in my 40's. I've told myself, "gee Patagonia that was so long ago! Can't you let go of the past?" I guess I'll just know when I'm finished working thru it. There will always be triggers & that's when you pull out all those skills you learned about self soothing, grounding etc & make sure they work.

I've never been to any of my HS reunions. Too much trauma assoc w/ that time frame in my life. Who knows maybe you saved yourself from a huge setback by not going you're very strong for having to go thru this all over again. You made it this far!!!
Peace
P