Ty Lilith ...saying things and forgetting them isn't really what it feels like. It's as if it wasn't mine to have been forgotten to begin with if you will.

Many ppl say things and forget them. Like they will even tell you something and you will say "you told me that already" and they just say "oh ok" no biggie.

I myself have done that a little bit, but not too often. I don't find my friends saying that to me too much.

I'm having a conversation like this one or even waiting on answers or even something I don't even know about and then this "turning" up in a conversation to realize that I had had it.

I have absolutely no connection to it. I have no recollection of it at all. Sometimes even the answers, responses & topic I won't know it.

One time I was waiting for my sister to return a phone call and let me know if she wanted to go in on a b'day gift for my other sister.

I never heard from her. So closer to my sisters b'day I happened to be with that sister and I had asked her "what did you decide to get (our sister) for her b'day?" She's like "Uh ...we talked about this...We are going in together" I'm like "you never returned my phone call" She's like "yes I did...we talked all about and you explained everything you bought and blah blah blah."

I didn't believe her, but then my brother in law said "I hate to say this, but I happened to be there when she was on the phone w/you (Eva) and you guys did discuss this"

I was totally freaked. I had absolutely no recognition of this conversation happening.

It's not just about this ...yes this "jars" me ...I mean really does. I actually questioned it that night...like is that normal?

I'm also saying that I feel like I'm slipping downward b/c I feel like all I have is this mental illness left of me.

any part of me that wasn't is gone.

I feel like I'm scrambling b/c I don't even talk this much about how I'm feeling.

Oh anyways thanks for listening.

I wanted to know if ppl felt like that and had any input.

Ty