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Originally Posted by BuckNut1
I believe that you can. For you have insight. I do not. I am too damaged and am not willing to do the painful work of healing my core trauma. I don't believe in therapists, I refuse to acknowledge any of my wrongs since I do not see myself as wrong, if I do, it means I'm all bad and leads me to suicidal thoughts.
It's too big, it's too ugly and it involves severe illness as a child and abandonment by my father at age 3. I was also beaten regularly by my stepfather.
I've asked you all a question I know the answer to. I know why I can't stay with one woman. No one can provide me with the loving reassurance that I require. No one can. It is impossible.
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Sorry I didn't see this above post.
I don't think you're incapable of loving and being loved. But as I said in my previous post, personal accountability also plays a part here.
You want things to change yes? Well they're not just going to happen - these sorts of things are hard work, but that's what makes them worth it no?
No one here can tell you what to do, it's just not our place. We can however support you and advise you in any way that's appropriate.
Keeping posting and hopefully you'll come to a better decision over what to do. Sometimes it takes this sort of exploration to see things more clearly.
Again I wish you luck.