Hi Suzy

I've been reading your posts and I'm sorry you are going through all this.

I know what that's like as when I had back in 1995 gotten way overmedicated gained so much weight after my son was born.

They put my on a ton of meds. I went from 140lbs to over 360.

I felt like a prisoner in my own body and to feel the discrimation and just the way ppl treat you it's so difficult.

Prior to my son being born I was a Jenny Craig consultant and I just think that ppl that need to lose weight it's a delicate issue and this place you were going to...regaurdless that they don't want to deal w/you b/c of your depression there is definately a better way to deal with that issue in telling you that maybe you're not ready instead of making you feel worse.

I since have lost most of my weight and going down from about a size 28 I'm now a size 6.

I have to say I was on pretty much every diet program there is.

One of the best one's I have found to be was Weight watchers. What I learned from there never left me.

I also went w/my sister and some friends and found that to be helpful and even a bit fun. I actually wasn't so focused on the amount I had to lose, which lets face it felt like I was climbing a huge mountain.

I'm not sure if you have a hard time losing weight though b/c of your chemical make up. My sister has that problem and she also can't really work out, which is the key to her losing the weight.

In this case what works for her and many others in the same situation is to do more of the diabetic diet.

It's to increase proteins by a certain percentage. You'd have to look that up specifically b/c I'm not too sure what that is, but I know it stimulates the metabolism and they use if for ppl that can't do too much exercise as well in the beginning.

I hope maybe this was helpul and I really want you to know your size doesn't define us as to who we are as ppl.

It's interesting how as I lost all my weight that I get more attention and ppl are nicer to me. I just find that really irritating. The ppl that never had weight issues and treat ppl differently b/c of their weight ...it'd be nice for them to experience what it is like to have to live in a world that often times judges ppl by their weight as well as just to have to feel what it's like personally to struggle. Maybe then they'd be more sensitive at the very least.

I wish you much luck and know that you sound like such a nice person and I think that counts for so much more.

((((((suzy)))))))