Please see a doctor Charlie soon, so they can help you overcome the distresses in your life. They can refer you to a specialist that can beging you on CBT and medications for depression. I'm sure you are suffering from depression, the silent killer. A small dose of an anti-depressant in combination of CBT can help you overcome all these problems. Also, do you have your VA benefits? If in the US, you should be able to get at least some VA percentage for doctors visitations.