See if you can put the anger where it belongs....on the abusers, NOT yourself. You don't have to accept this. You did nothing wrong. WHen you were born you were perfect and innocent, the abuser(s) told you lies about yourself and now you have to spend all of this time, fighting them. BUt, they are.......all lies. Usually abusers abuse, because they hate themselves and take it out on the most innocent. Keep working with your t and perhaps journaling...talking to us and others. Sadly being abused as a child is so sickenly common. THe blame and shame belong to those who abused you. hugs, Nicole