I need strength. I need strength to control myself. I need strength to handle the tension. Im falling into the entrapment of my family. How can i prevent myself from losing my cool demeanor? I started retorting back but i hate it. I dont want to. How can i refain the strength needed to get myself under control? To be able to outlast the tension. To stay cool and uneffected by all. I've somehow lost my equilebrium with them for the first time and im not sure how to gain it back.
Lately im posting and i never used to, wonder if thats positive or just way worse.