hardest part is to pretend to be happy for family,workplace.I feel like an actor sometimes ,convincing people in my happiness and untouchability.And amazing thing is that it works,people around me say "you are so sure of yourself,so confident,....life is spoiling you..."
But I guess i 'd rather look confident ,then hurt.The only problem is they confuse my silence for ignorance,my self defensive talk for sarcasm..Only ones ,who know me close enough know that it is just an appearance.
sorry,didn't mean to steal your thread CaptainKirk
I hope you'll find your way out of that swampy feeling,Captain. I'm going to put my favorite music on and work out
best wishes and feel better