Lordy, I hope it doesn't take me over a year to get beyond this...but, I'm VERY relieved that still being so sad/hurt/angry at this point is not abnormal. It's been a long time since I had a serious relationship end and never had one end this way before. My prior serious relationship ended with a sense of mutual understanding (after a very brief period of sadness/hurt/anger) and has developed into a true friendship of 10+ years.

I totally get that he may have been trying to avoid hurting me by not being completely honest, but it would eventually have become obvious that he wasn't moving back overseas. When I initially questioned the reason he gave for ending the relationship and asked questions about his plans to move, he got angry with me and accused me of challenging his decisions....so I backed off and never really had much closure. He made me feel as if I had no right to know why the relationship ended. Just that he'd made a decision and I had to respect it. End of the story. Now I know what that was all about (much easier to deflect than to be honest for some people). Just seems dumb/incredibly immature to me...I have no respect left and now doubt the entire relationship because of this...makes me feel as if I wasted years of my life and was just a big fool to ever believe/trust him.

A relationship doesn't always have to end badly....What I'd hoped for was to one day be able to look back on things just simply realize we weren't meant to be together. Now I regret ever having met him. Maybe one day I'll feel more generous and just feel sorry for him.