I am in therapy for the first time. It's been about 4 months. I genuinely like and respect my T (actually, too much so, I'm experiencing some crazy transference.)

When I first started, I came in to learn more about myself and be a better person overall. I wanted to become a better decision maker and improve my relationships. I have a tendency to fall too quickly for the significant men in my life and I have a hard time developing female friendships (I am female.)

Four months ago I was more secure. Four months ago I was a bit happier. Four months ago I was sleeping through the night and had a healthy balance between anxiety and healthy stress. All of that has changed. Since I started therapy, I have bad sleep habits (I wake up all night), have become more anxious than usual, and have developed an unhealthy relationship with food (I am eating as little as possible and working out daily.)

I have a session coming up soon and I plan to disclose everything to him once and for all...I've alluded to some things but he doesn't know the full extent.

My question: is it crazy that some people get worse before they get better? What the hell is going on here? Should I admit defeat (from my transference feelings) and find another T? Sometimes I wonder if I will never find this so-called "corrective emotional experience" my T claims I will have if I stick it out.