Oh I'm so sorry that you experienced that Jordy - I agree with you, that feels like abuse, and can be really triggering and brings back terrible memories! I experienced something very similar when I was younger, and was s**ually abused by a very close family member in different ways for several years, and I still have difficulty coping sometimes today... but things do get better. I agree with your T, that separating yourself from your home on Sundays is a good idea, and could really help you in your process to recovery. I know that right now, the weather is freezing and the stables can be lonely, but I think that lunch there with the company of your horses in cold weather, would be so much better and less triggering than lunches with your brother and his triggering son in warmer conditions. Maybe just bundle up, and take some apples or sugar cubes to your horses, and spend time with them. Atleast try it one Sunday and see how it goes. I hope that everything works out, just keep hanging in there. And feel free to message me if you ever want to talk more about this, or anything in general