Oh, yeah, I can relate...I think I shocked my therapist when I told her I don't see me as ever not being depressed and, given this, I welcome death.

I get that life is difficult, but to have to approach it daily already in a depressed state makes it that much more so.

You're not alone, PrisonBound, I would imagine most of us on this board have entertained similar thoughts at one point or another. Take it one day at a time.