i look at my H and think "you really don't get me?or you pretend not to get me ?" and I don't know which thought hurts more.I gave up trying to explain to him that I have to feel connection with him,whatever ,,long story,bottom line I find myself numbly giving up on fight for happiness.
please,find a way to get out of the vortex of indifference and numbness!,it destroys everything and kills whatever feelings we have left.Do anything possible:talk,interact,play a role,just do not seclude yourself,it is selfdestruction .