I should have stopped before I started... now I'm up and it's almost 12:30 AM!!!!!! I need sleep but my mind can't stop racing. between si and sui I just can't take anymore! Why does everything have to start happening when the semester is almost over. Please, just let me have some relief tonight.

I was hoping that's what it would take but, things are bad.... I need help... yet chat's not working, I should call a help line but I don't want to admit to my sister that things are bad...even if she can tell.

I put on this smile, and it's so fake... I should text someone I know but I just don't want to wake them up. My mind keeps racing between more si, and sui. I dont' know how much of this I can take tonight.... what can I do if I can't focus long enough to try something... aggggg