Hi guys

i am feeling better, feeling happier with many things.

your posts have been...whats the word...wonderful, inspirational, touching, and heart-warming. they really are.

when i first wrote this thread last week, i felt invisible, alone, and just plain down. i think the nerves were getting to me too, from my vocal lesson. and i was hurt because i saw people i really cared for hurting. my natural instinct is to help, and to repair bridges. i realised i couldnt do that, and it kind of hit an inner-nerve. it hit me personally, i dont know why, i still dont know now. but it did.

the last few days, i have been thinking about it, and by reading your post have realised i wasnt as invisible as i felt. you all said such nice things, that i feel it would be rude to leave. i dont like running away from my problems, im the type of person who HAS to face up to my issues, i have never run from anything, and never will. i dont class me leaving here as running away, i know i needed it.

i will be honest now. when i wrote the post i didnt expect anyone to write a reply, not because i thought you didnt care, not that at all, but because i didnt feel anyone would care about me. i didnt feel as though i had helped anyone, therefore making it easy to leave. but the comments you left me, made me see that i am accepted, and liked. it seemed to hard to say i would leave and not return - which was my initial plan.

i am returning as of now. i know it has been a short break - alot shorter than i expected - but i feel mentally like i can return now. i feel safe again, and non-threatened. besides, it is hard to leave somewhere like this when you have such nice support from people, id be mad to walk away to not return.

again, thank you. it did (and still does) mean so much to me, what you all said.

look forward to speaking soon, and sorry for that momentary blip! i needed this week to remain unseen. it certainly helped.

simon