Wow..right on..I'm sure you are a wonderful woman as well.
Life is tricky...it's like good people have to go through **** so they can be even more wiser..and get moksha..by letting go of all desires...so this will be their last life..that's what I want to believe..I mean why else should I suffer like this.

Thank you for your kind words..and actually it does help me..gave me a smile..and a little twinkle in my eye. Kiss and hug.
I don't want to hope anymore..just live and no expectations..such scenes will come my way and I should just ignore like its some crappy movie trailers. I have my own goals..even if I don't 'find' him I will still go forward...accomplish what I want to.