Thank you, I appreciate the reply. It's not that I can't get anything done, I do a lot around the house not to her standards of course. I see my role as providing her with love, for example, she has back problems because of her job, so I give her an hour massage almost every night.

But my problem is that I can't delegate the tasks on my own. If she or my boss or whoever doesn't clearly define a task list, I will likely fail. I would do better on say an assembly line rather than a sales job (which is what I was doing). But I'm not going to be happy doing something like that long term, because I'm not serving any higher purpose for myself of for others.

If can't find satisfaction in what I'm doing, I can't put myself behind it.

I understand that reality is most people just suffer through life hating their job, but my time on this earth is short and I refuse to spend half of my life a slave to money. I know that you need money in this world, and I don't mind bucking up and getting a ****** job temporarily, but I will never succeed at a job I don't like. I don't have the discipline for that, or maybe the tolerance.