Why is everyone and everything so annoying? I work in a small office with several other women and I feel like everytime they laugh or interrupt me, I want to slam their heads into their desks. Don't get me wrong, I like the people I work with, I just don't seem to be able to tolerate ANYTHING lately.

I go to the movies but I don't hear the movie- I hear the person behind me opening up candy - and I just feel my fists clenching. (I should mention I also have ADHD).

I've been feeling really angry and it is always over the smallest,silliest things.

I'm going back to my PDoc on Wednesday, hopefully she will change my meds or something. :/

Currently I'm on 200 MG of lamotrigine - some days I feel like it works (because even though I want to, I do NOT bash people's heads in LOL).. but 98% of the time I feel irritable and angry. I HATE IT. I just want to be happy.

It's like I'm sitting outside myself watching myself ruin all the relationships in my life.

Also, I feel like I'm numb to feelings - is this normal? Like, I feel nothing for my parents. I'm sure if something where to happen to them, I would be devastated but I really feel nothing for my family.

My partner puts up with me but is sick of me always being "negative". I always jump to conclusions over anything and assume the worst. It has cost me some of the most important people in my life.

I've recently realized that I am often trigged by sounds in the environment.. or even people looking at me the wrong way... or someone not knowing telepathically what I want for dinner (because I don't know).

Sorry... Manic Rant... Just need some support...

Tell me I'm not the only one who feels like Cybil.