I've been reading the links and I understand relationships better, I think. But those are more geared towards maintaining a relationship, not starting one…I guess I don't get how I'm not able to hold a guy's attention for very long. I don't know what I'm doing wrong unless it's because I'm too honest and not just omitting everything that may even be the least bit negative from the conversations.

And I suppose I would be amazed at the lengths men will go through for love as it seems that any sort of inconvenience will turn them off. I mean, I've never even gotten to the "second date". They all realize how inconvenient or clueless I am on the first.

It just appears like I'm not worth anybody's time or effort and I don't really know why…it's in my personality to be more cynical, nihilistic, negative etc. so being overly positive is kind of "fake" for me. I'd rather not be fake, just as I'd rather be able to tell someone the truth and not lie by omission all the time, but they won't bother with me if I do.