I have been looking back at my chart from my former psychiatrist, what she has done to me. I am able to look at it online and I am just, like, wow, and I was having psych problems?!?! She had me on up to 10 different psych meds at a time, and none of them were working, so she upped my doses. They were so strong, and the toxic range in anyone's blood is over 1000. My range in my blood was over 2100. Seriously?!?! She ordered bloodwork and then after it came back this high, she checked my liver, and it was also highly elevated. The one liver test, the normal range is between 10-35; my value was a whopping 579. Seriously!?!?! I looked a couple days later at my chart. She then increased my meds. Seriously?!?! They were not working, it was a schizo-misdiagnosis. I was on a concoction of meds, and the worst was clozapine. It was such a high dose, I wet the bed every night, no matter how many times I woke up to go to the bathroom. I drooled so profusely, I had to put 4 towels under my face when I slept. I used a plastic mattress cover and a plastic pillow protector. Everything was still ruined. Myself and my parents remember her telling me that I will not live to be 40, that I should just kill myself now. She is a psychiatrist. Seriously!?!? She was not licensed to prescribe the clozapine, so I have no idea how she got away with that. The only reason I know that is because when I tried to change psychiatrists, the head dr of that hospital would NOT refill it; he said only he was licensed to prescribe it, she was not. Seriously?!?!? When I went to change psychiatrists, I had to hire an attorney to see a new one, just so my new one could even know what was happening with me, to see my chart. My old psychiatrist and the hospital refused to hand it over, regardless of the fact that I signed a release form. Seriously??!!? Even then the hospital refused to hand over my full chart, just a few months. Again...SERIOUSLY!?!??!?!?!