I had a battle with alcohol, I had to cut myself off from all my friends, my "drinking buddies", so then I felt alone. I really liked the way alcohol made me feel. Maybe you will need to make some new friends along the way, find some new things that spike your interest more than the way alcohol makes your mind feel.....it does take a lot of effort and mind power to break that addiction, once you are hooked, it is really really rough. Best of luck to you, it is a big battle, but I am sure you are a warrior.