I thank you all for you posts........its very difficult at the moment......I appreciate he is going through a terrible time however I am struggling and I feel that he is so consumed with his breakdown (for whatever reason) that he is not able to consider the impact on myself.....my family and importantly the baby. Not once since the sunday when he last spoke to me 3 weeks ago now, has he thought to ask how we are doing.

His father should have gone to see him on sunday and I had asked him to ask his son if I could go visit him in hospital. I have heard nothing and it is going into Tuesday now. When his father came to my home the other day my mother said to him......my daughter is worried sick about your son.......he must have asked him when he visited him on sunday and yet he has not contacted me and doesn't appear to understand that I am deeply upset.

I feel like I am left hanging .....waiting to see if he will let me go visit him......I feel angry.....I also feel like he will say no and that leads me once again to think that he isn't even considering me or that baby in all this. He would have been in hospital nearly three weeks and from what I have read he would have been medicated and that should have started to kick in by now and he would have had intensive therapy sessions.....and they would want to be sending him back into the community for support at home by now, as he would be stabilised.

I just don't understand him not letting me see him......it feels cruel....although I am trying to appreciate his situation and the breakdown and understand that he may be so consumed by his own emotions that he cannot consider mine at the moment.

It would be interesting to hear from anyone who has either experienced a breakdown themselves or has experience of a loved one who has had a breakdown to hear there take on things........

Am trying to carry on with daily things, dreading the telephone going its like a double edged sword really.....I am desperate to hear some news but also don't want to hear his father say to me that his son doesn't want to see me......I think it will break me to hear that........thanks once again for your support......................hugs x