I used to be that when bad stuff would happen to threaten me or my family I could react appropriately.
that often meant hiding, running,(mostly in childhood) to frequently staying up all night with a weapon to protect me and the children, because my husband just never seemed to be home. The situation at home was that either the phone was'nt working, from no paying the bill, or I flat out did'nt have time to call the cops, fat lot of good it would do anyway, we lived in a rural area. Needless to say I had made some very bad desisions in those days. Things were always unsafe at home. I am all out of that now. The problem is that now, when anything frightens me at all I just freeze, can't move at all. Then I shake uncontrollably. I feel like a damn vulnerable coward. What can I do to overcome this as it's making me a wreck? I am real sick physically a lot as well. I am so depressed I can't even function well at all.