Thank you everyone for your responses and concern (Not really sure how to respond to many of them, other than to say it helps to hear encouraging things). I'm doing much better for now, but with Monday approaching my mind has already started to create reasons not to go to work. I have to go. It's a dire situation. I'm not going to have a second chance like this last month. It seems that I'm probably only still living in a home because I'm young, and still connected to people. What happens when gaps in friendships start happening, and my parents stop caring? I worry heavily for my future.

Breemarie. I feel so inadequate trying to help you. What makes it harder is that I don't know you personally. I imagine I'm going to have a hard time dealing with the fact that I won't be able to physically help anyone, and can only offer my help in words. Too me, words are not as good as action, and for that I am sorry. I've always thought that if I had someone to support, I could go to work more consitently, knowing that someone else was dependant on me. I don't care enough about myself to be motivated to go. I'm sure you can understand that when you are depressed, it's hard to care about anything.