He's against it for me and I'm not sure why. He was saying how it is a good medication, but it is not suited for me which sounds like rubbish. He didn't seem to understand why I wanted a new medication so badly. I told him meds have significantly changed my life and more could help me. I lived for years as a vegan that did not take medication and I tried to control my symptoms with exercise, good diet, cbt, etc. But it only did so much. I still do all those things, but I need something else and idk what.

He treats me differently than the other autistic patients he sees. I live in an area where there is all lot of help for people with mental illnesses since there are so many of us and it is a nurturing/pro health area. There is a town nearby that has a facility that helps autistic adults with supported living and they go to the facility I go to. I'm more cognitive/independent than a lot of them so he gives me a lot of tough care instead of babying me. He expects a lot from me and it's kind of hard.