I haven't been on this board before. I mainly post on the psychotherapy, feelings for T board, as I'm struggling with that. Right now I'm in a bad place. As I posted on the other board, I've had a bad session with my T today and have been very depressed since. I am having thoughts about whether living is worth it or not. And I have a history of self-harm. I'm struggling right now. I think I should call the suicide hotline, but I've called before and they were not very empathetic. Would appreciate some kind words as I have none for myself.