I am over weight. I was in treatment almost 5 years ago and for the most part "recovered" but the voice of ED has never left. Its just super easy to not listen to it and not give it a second thought. I have put on weight over the years because I realized I didn't like torturing myself like I used to do and...I kinda just let myself go

I took a break from therapy about a month ago and have been feeling way low since. Im not sure if its from leaving therapy itself, or not having someone to talk to, or the job position change, or what. Doesn't matter. What I feel self-conscious about is that..Im ashamed to say that I have gained a bit since I started therapy again last april. I do not want T to notice if she didn't while I was in therapy. I know she won't say anything, or probably even **** two sh!ts about it, but I will know and I feel ashamed

I have the weight to lose. I just want to feel normal again