I am sorry you and your daughter are not getting along. Please don't do yourself in, though. You have a life of your own, and it doesn't need to revolve around whether your daughter is happy with you.

If you are serious about wanting to kill yourself, then please call for help--either a local number or a national one. I suggest you look at the Depression forum here. It has a sticky at the top with such phone numbers.

You mentioned that you are getting help with your mental issues. Are you seeing a counselor? I think that would be a good idea, if you haven't been already. Your depression seems to be getting quite strong.

I am only hearing your side of the story, so I don't know how accurate your daughter's perceptions are. However, assuming you are not actually being critical and unaware of it, you might consider that your daughter could have some mental problems herself. It certainly sounds like she needs some therapy to deal with her anger from her childhood.

I agree that you should limit your time with your daughter. It sounds like she has mixed feelings about your visit, and you could say you went to see them, but didn't wear out your welcome.