Hey, I'm having a difficult time. I have been diagnosed with severe depression and anxiety for years. I was on medicine but had not taken it for weeks because I moved to a new state and could not get a refill. I had no idea I had no more refills and my former doctor would not prescribe anymore since I'm out of state. I found me one but I have to wait a few more weeks to get in.

2 nights ago after a terrible day at work ( I really, really hate my job), my husband and I had a huge argument. I got so upset I sped home and began slitting my wrists. My husband and his mom found me and calmed me down. Luckily my mother in law is a psychiatrist, sadly she can't do much for me because of the law. We called my former doctor and she agreed to give me one more months prescription, long enough until I can see my new doctor. There were no other openings at other doctors offices either. I couldn't see anyone. And I didn't want to go to the hospital and get admitted to some ward.

It's fine and all until my husband said I can feel better and return to work.

I seriously hate my job. It really wasn't my choice, I needed a job ASAP and it was open. I have to work as a wedding consultant and it's fun and all, but the constant interaction with people, dressing brides, having to hear their stories, hearing their complaints, having to keep up with their orders to make sure they order on time, meeting my sales goals and to top it off, despite being part time, I'm still never home! I never see my husband. This job isn't worth it. Especially days I work my butt off only to hear the bride say she is not buying today, which in turn means I'm getting a chewing out from my manager and then listen to the "favorite" brag about how she has no problem selling.

I know, I know, "why don't you just get a new job?" Oh right, why hadn't I thought of that? That's so simple! Oh wait, I have. And there aren't any! Not ones to were I don't have to deal with customer issues constantly. I saw a counselor at my old town who said I should avoid these types of jobs because I'm too introverted but they are all I've ever had. It's hard getting a job good for introverts because I have no other experiences. Office assistant, mail clerk, stocking, you name it, I've applied. I've gone to school for graphic design but can't get a job in that because it's cutthroat out there for that. EVERYONE wants be be a graphic designer.

Once my husband said to return to work, I felt like cutting myself again. I was hoping he would see the torture it puts me through. I know we need the money, but I'm scared if I stay here longer, I may do something worse! I'm thankful I have a job, and there are millions of people who don't have one, but I'm cutting myself! That can't be right? Do I really have to live like this the rest of my life? Staying medicated and working jobs that make me hate everyone and everything? There must be something more! What should I do?