my sister had to see the scene of my dad drunk this holiday.

i walked into his room tonight and started shaking. its traumatizing to have to be in there and remember the scenes of not just recently him being drunk and almost getting hurt but having seeing him almost die in his room.

i know i talk about much of my dad being drunk. sorry. its just...i cant get over it. im afraid hes always going to die. and thats partly why i cant leave my house cuz if i leave he will drink. my sis told me to tell him if he didnt quit drinking i should just leave but i dont feel i can leave this house.