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Originally Posted by simplydivine1030
Why is everyone and everything so annoying? I work in a small office with several other women and I feel like everytime they laugh or interrupt me, I want to slam their heads into their desks. Don't get me wrong, I like the people I work with, I just don't seem to be able to tolerate ANYTHING lately.
I go to the movies but I don't hear the movie- I hear the person behind me opening up candy - and I just feel my fists clenching. (I should mention I also have ADHD).
I've been feeling really angry and it is always over the smallest,silliest things.
I'm going back to my PDoc on Wednesday, hopefully she will change my meds or something. :/
Currently I'm on 200 MG of lamotrigine - some days I feel like it works (because even though I want to, I do NOT bash people's heads in LOL).. but 98% of the time I feel irritable and angry. I HATE IT. I just want to be happy.
It's like I'm sitting outside myself watching myself ruin all the relationships in my life.
Also, I feel like I'm numb to feelings - is this normal? Like, I feel nothing for my parents. I'm sure if something where to happen to them, I would be devastated but I really feel nothing for my family.
My partner puts up with me but is sick of me always being "negative". I always jump to conclusions over anything and assume the worst. It has cost me some of the most important people in my life.
I've recently realized that I am often trigged by sounds in the environment.. or even people looking at me the wrong way... or someone not knowing telepathically what I want for dinner (because I don't know).
Sorry... Manic Rant... Just need some support...
Tell me I'm not the only one who feels like Cybil.
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Hi Simply,
I know exactly what you mean. I have had some of the same issues. I've figured out, at least for myself, that we seem to be ultra-extra-sensitive to lots of things, most things in fact.
We just might be the most sensitive people on this planet! Sometimes I cannot tolerate sounds, bright lights, sudden noises (startle reflex), and simply people! I think it is normal for our conditions but there also must be some decent help from our doctors that can make this better for us. I used to work in an office and I hated it so much. I finally had to quit working as I got older because work just became intolerable and I was able to go on disability but I had to get a lawyer and fight hard to get it at age 55. I really wanted to keep working but I just could not handle it. I also had another condition that helped me get disability. I envy all of you who can hold down a job through all of this, no matter what you do. I kept thinking that maybe just working in a factory would be better than the stupid offices, but it would have been a cut in pay for sure. Sometimes choosing another job, line of work or going back to school might be be a solution re work. Also there is always the State Dept. of Vocational Rehabilitation to check into. I hope your doc can help with these problems. Hang in there and don't give up hope.
