I'm so sorry you have to struggle so hard... but maybe that's just it, you struggle for a normal life and maybe you are not ready for it? Maybe you need some healing first? There are a lot of maybe's in life.... I am still on the road to (recovery?) somewhere... I have been on this road for a while now. I have accepted the fact that I am different and that people will rarely understand me... I think normal is overrated anyway.... I am a bit more at peace with the world since I stopped trying to be like everyone else... because that is not who I am.

Therapy helped me a lot in the sense of changing my perspective on things... We cannot always change our circumstances or even our own reactions to them... but we can change the way we see it... I used to see all the little things as negative, but it does not always need to be that way...

As far as dating goes... that is a very tricky area and I generally tend to screw up my love life with out trying too much... I am unfortunately not one to really give advice on that, but I generally go by the rule that if I don't feel comfortable, I run.... But I know that sometimes we need to push our boundaries a little to find something special...