Thanks from the heart. I was so stupid, it's the second time it happens. The first time I didn't cancel, but today it was way too overwhelming and I couldn't reach out here for advice.

I don't know what to do now, my T hasn't got back to me yet, I guess she'll do it after 5pm. She always texts me for changes and always texts back so.. maybe I can wait to see what she writes (if she will text back) while I try to make some clearness in my mind. I have a terrible headache now.

I am really afraid she just thinks "ok" and doesn't want to hear back from me and that's it now, since I did well last time.

Also, you are right.. they are different persons, thank you for reminding me. I know my GP hasn't been professional lately and I should get a new one. Still, I can't keep it in mind sometimes, when I'm criticized so openly. Because she was supposed to be the doctor after all.
So about T, I suppose I have to wait a couple hours now..?