T talks me through it when I start to disconnect a bit. She'll usually say "Are you shutting down on me?" And sometimes I know; sometimes I don't. I know it sounds weird, but she'll ask me where i'm at, if i'm in my "dark room", to try to come back out to her side (reality) and push through that urge to disappear. Sometimes I straddle between the two (literally) but she's done a great job in helping me stay out of that place lately. I only recently went back there last session when things were really bad, but there was no point in trying to talk me through that one (i didn't even realize I couldn't hear her anymore) so in that instance, she simply let me be.
A lot of people don't feel you should push yourself to experience certain things because you may not be ready, but on the other hand, at least in my own experience, if I allow myself not to process something until the "time is right" - i'll never process it. It's why T is more often now to "gently push" me to experience my thoughts a little deeper.
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