I know you are hurting. Who wouldn't be after such a shock. My heart goes out to you. I hope you can stay on top of your depression. I assume since you were in the hospital they got you set up with a Therapist to help you through this.
Glad you came to PC. It's a great place to plant your thoughts and get support.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
"Each morning we are born again. What we do today is what matters most." -Buddha