By the way, I just thought of something that I did some time ago so I had forgotten about it. I had my shrink do a short voice recording that addressed this issue in a way. We had done some hypnotic inductions so we had already done "relaxation tapes" so it wasn't a big step to have a recording. First I find his voice soothing all by itself. On the tape, he says he is "here" and invites me to remind myself of things about him, his face, his office, the times we've had together. Then he also mentions his good will and true caring about me. It is like a reassurance and something that I have available to me so I don't have to bother him.