Thanks Arch I too have been a royal pain in the bottom and my T has never made me feel like i am too much for her, asking for too much contact outside session etc. She is a rock...so i dont know why i cannot trust her when she says she wont abandon me. I trust her in every other way.
I love the sound of the voice recording that your T did for you..i'd like my T to do that but have no clue how on Earth i would ask her.

Leah- what an interesting thought. I certainly feel close to my T at the moment. After 4 years together, i have started opening up about the nitty gritty things that lurk in my mind. I guess you may be correct. Before i had my T, i had nothing to lose. i never let anyone get close to me, so i didnt have to worry about them abandoning me. but now i have my T, i know my heart would break if/when she abandoned me. I have more to lose than ever before.

Scary.