I guess learning to love yourself and accept your flaws 100% is the first step to building self-esteem.
Like you said you have a thing for self-loathing, maybe working on that would make the rest better.

I'll be honest im super weird especially in public, all my teenage life I hated it. As I grew up I realized my flaws kinda set me apart from the crowd. Im not saying dont fix them, but for once enjoy them before you decide they're not adding a great deal to your character.

I now feel like ever since I've accepted my "weird ", im more confident around people...I can turn my negative into something funny and its never a bad idea.

Hope this helps!

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