Thank you all. My T I am currently seeing is provided through my place of employment. I will soon be looking for another one.

My girlfriend has known me 9 years but we have been in a relationship for 1 year. She has always known there was troubling things haunting me but did not know how bad it was until we became intimately acquainted. She is sweet and patient.

However, I have troubles acknowledging unconditional love nor do I trust many people. The one responsible for protecting me and nurturing me while I was defenceless and young had systematically abused me.