Thank you for your support! It means a lot to me as except for T no one seems to realize how difficult it is for me to face him every week.

Yes, his girlfriend knows everything, but she says he was only a teenager who made a stupid mistake and won't do it again. Well, yes he was a teenager, but i abused me over a fur year period on a regularly basis up two twice a week... no, that's not one stupid mistake ans teenager does!

If have to leave home on sundays my best option is really my horses. I love them to bits and they can keep me safe when I need it. Sounds crazy but when I was really depressed and looking after Jordy (my horse) full time knowing that if I was hurt he wouldn't get fed in the mornig kept me alive... some people at the yard would probably have fed him later in the day, but I didn't want him to miss one single meal because of me...