Thanks so much everyone. And for you, Useless Me! You, and all of you, are very caring to write back.

I am sorry to post that I was having suicide ideation last night. I think I'm not supposed to do that on these boards. I got a "gentle reminder" from a board monitor. Thanks for letting me know. Even though I've been a member for a few months and I just didn't know I was being inappropriate. Sorry.

So I'm just trying to take it easy today. Just sacking out on the couch. I talked with T today. She called me - that was nice. I'm trying to get ahold of myself and get back on track with life. It's hard as you all know. This depression thing is really insidious isn't it? I hate it and yet it looks like it will be something I have to learn how to live with. I do like having this community. It always helps to have someone to talk to!