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Originally Posted by Gavinandnikki
Sounds very painful!
But. I think she is right. Stay off the computer for at least 24 hours- no peeking. Can't even check to see how many people reply to this thread.
Just because you feel something doesn't mean you have to act on it. It's your habit to act on it but it can be your choice to listen to your T and stay off.
And they're not your "goodies".... They're bad for you and you know it.
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I agree but it's hard because I like this forum. I start to think "what's so bad about it"? just like the "driving past T's house". It's hard to give up what feels good. It makes me cry to have to give it up.
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Originally Posted by Syra
I am in awe of your ability to articulate and share your journey as it is happening, as you struggle with conflicting feelings in the present. I would be too afraid to do that. I'm usually reluctant to take advice (which is different than listening to observations and brainstorming strategies), and my T doesn't give advice. But I wonder if it's not so much that your T said that, as that what your T said resonated with you, and something you want to try. Is it like that?
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I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. I don't want to be utterly miserable when I have to quit therapy. Yes, in my heart, and in the adult parts, I know my T is right. I know it was wrong to go past her house. It just makes me cry because, like she says, it feels good temporarily but not in the long run.
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Originally Posted by archipelago
If you have a sense that this is an addiction and that it seems confirmed by your therapist then staying away seems best. Posting about it just seems then to feed the addiction because you'll wonder about the responses. If this is a genuine issue then I wouldn't post about it, but just try to refrain from acting on the impulse to post. I've left many a site before when I got too involved. It is a matter of balance and if you are not finding that then the best thing to do is change it and see how you respond to the change and see how long it takes for you to not need it.
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I know. I thought some people would want to know how my session went today. T told me to cut down on coming here; she knows how hard it is to stop cold turkey. I've been posting a long time. I have friends here. It's hard to just stop without replacing it with something else. She's also right that I like the attention. I won't be on tomorrow; I'll sit with the feelings. I keep crying, but of course, not in my session when I wished I could cry.
I think I was angry with my T, too. She asked me if I was.