Anniversary dates are triggering for me bec all I can think is "what was I doing a yr ago....what was I feeling...where were my emotions." It's getting worse as my anniversary approaches. Dec 14th the Newtown shootings. I've decided to already stop watching tv now so I do t have to get sucked in again.
I also notice that I'm constantly comparing myself to that person a yr ago. I had no idea how to deal w/ PTSD & did some really stupid things. It's very easy to let my brain go back there & start to do those things again bec even though they weren't good for me it's how I handled the trauma. Now I know I have to go back & help that traumatized person & help her heal.
Not sure if this helped but I do feel for you when you talk about PTSD.
Peace