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Originally Posted by feralkittymom
You might want to think about putting measures in place that keep you connected in session. I noticed that at pretty much all the crucial moments that tell you something you don't want to hear, you said you check out, get triggered, forget. I would suspect that's why you felt disconnected from your T, not because of anything she felt about you.
I'm also confused about being adamant about never seeing another T. I understand the dread of starting over, for sure, but if you really want to heal, rather than simply stay connected to this T, then why cut off the possibility of another therapy? I'm not saying it would necessarily be a good choice, but your T suggested it as an option for a reason.
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I had trouble focusing today because right away she told me how she felt it was like spying and she keeps her work separate from her private life. A statement like that triggers me very badly even thougn I know it's reality. I think I disconnected right then, but I didn't tell her. I should have. It should have sunk in by now that I'm her job, and her work, and she has a private life. Maybe I did tell her that, and she said "but I'm here with you NOW". By then I was so flushed and hot (both from my feelings and the temperature in her office) that I felt sick. But you're right; she wasn't feeling any diffferent towards me.
I adamantly refuse to see another T!! This is my 5th one, and that's it. I'd go to another group, but I am not going to suffer this transference again. I've had all different types of therapy, and I can't stand it anymore. I crave it too much; it's another addiction. I crave the good feelings I get, so I have to stop, just like with PC and FB and googling. If I need help in the future, I'll see my T less often, or I'll struggle by myself.
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Originally Posted by feralkittymom
. I noticed that at pretty much all the crucial moments that tell you something you don't want to hear, you said you check out, get triggered, forget. I would suspect that's why you felt disconnected from your T, not because of anything she felt about you.
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I am hesitant to post and feed the addiction. I am not even going to read this thread after I reply because I don't believe that is helpful to you either.
Yes. That is my opinion too. Instead of seeing it as triggering and then tuning out, it might be helpful to see it as putting your hands over your ears and being disrespectful and dismissing. That may not be your intent but the result is the same. Hopefully, you will not give in to the temptation to feel bad and instead will just move to correcting the problem so you can feel better about yourself.
My T uses parts therapy with me and I dissociate and forget too so I understand.
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Thank you. I just had a hard time today. I wish I had been more "there."
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Originally Posted by Karrebear
Either Im not understanding things correctly or Im playing devil's advocate but how are posting on this site and driving by her house even remotely related? Driving by her house, yes, is a no no but this is a community forum where you get support. Getting support is not a bad thing. And you comment plenty on others posts. You give to this site, too.  |
My T and I think they are both addictive ways to make myself feel better, but they often make me feel worse. Driving by her house isn't directly related to posting on PC. Internet addiction is a separate problem, but both keep me away from focusing on my real relationships. I like to help people on PC; that's why I want to cut down, not cut out PC.
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Originally Posted by learning1
Karebear, I think it's from coming on the site too much and spending too much time on here. That could be good for some people in some situations, but not everyone.
Rainbow, I had an idea... do you want to have a friendly competition to see if we both manage to stay off here until the weekend?  I don't know if you've already signed off for tonight, but I'll probably be on and off for another hour or two to see if you reply to that. Either way, I think I'll see if I can keep up with you and stay off til the weekend 
Have you got ideas for other fun things you like to do for when you want to come on here? |
I'm still here but won't come on again until the week-end either. Yes! We can both do it. It's a deal! Thanks.
