For me, the most difficult thing is if I am the centre of attention and it's about ME. That's a big difference between just being the centre of attention.
Explanation:
I can be on stage and run a talent show. No problem. It isn't about me - it's about the kids in the talent show. And everyone in the school knows me.
I cannot go out and do things for my birthday. It's about me. It feels fake and uncomfortable. I worry about people I don't even know noticing and thinking I'm horrible and why would anyone want to be out somewhere with me? I think the people who would attend are doing it out of guilt and not because they want to.
Also: if I'm "learning" something or doing something I'm not used to, I don't want to be there. Like going bowling or anything like that - I might like the activity and might desperately want to take part and enjoy it... but I'll be pretty miserable when I'm out.
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"The time has come, the Walrus said, to talk of many things. Of shoes, of ships, of sealing wax, of cabbages, of kings! Of why the sea is boiling hot, of whether pigs have wings..."
"I have a problem with low self-esteem. Which is really ridiculous when you consider how amazing I am.
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