You're right, i don't have to. The problem is, it will take a while to find a new GP where I live and this time I'd like to get a list and go meet them first.
Meanwhile my family is forcing me to go as I can' tell them what she said cause they don't know about my problem. Besides it's their GP as well and they're wondering why i want to dump her since she's always been good, BEFORE this.

So I though I'd do the effort - but I see what you guys mean and I agree. I am still upset and angry and hurt cause I can't reach my T, I've been trying since this morning but I'm punishing myself once again by not allowing my well being cause "I'm just not worth it". So I really hope to get the new GP before next week because this was quite damaging and I'm still too weak to cope on my own.