Hi Molly..we all care about you and do not want you to take your life!!!!

Have you ever tried a crisis line and or therapy and some meds to help with the depression??? I am almost 67 now and I have tried all 3 and they helped very much.. Not sure whether is ok here but will try??? 1 800 273 TALK and 1 800 SUICIDE are the national crisis lines in the USA.. Call these numbers and call will get routed to local crisis center in your area..

If you come right out and say to them you are doing suicide now the cops and ambulance at your front door so take some care.. I have 4 or 5 really good friends that work the Seattle crisis lines..they know all of me and love me anyway..lol

The right therapist and shrink can do miracles.. You take care of yourself please..reach for some professional help