Thanks so much. I feel like trying again. It is during a stressful time, but if I trust that the patch is providing the nicotine, then I just have to concentrate on the habit of putting something in my mouth. I've filled the frig with healthy and low cal drinks plus extra teas. I also do have some light sedative meds that I can use judiciously if I get edgy and anxious. I will also look into the quit smoking web site. I tried one before and it helped because people really understand what it is like. I just started cheating so felt dishonest about posting, but I should have just come clean. I just didn't think there was much awareness about mental health issues and so I didn't feel all that good about explaining that to people. Here I feel like that is understood so I don't have to hesitate. It's good to know that there are people who have beaten this tricky and difficult addiction.